metal girl
in black holes it’s easy to pretend that she is just a hoax
that you are just human
but fantasy deliquesces
and the truth can be so easily unleashed
[you created me]
she coats her cracked lips with copper
(you wanted to be unearthed)
you taste the metal
she is forged venom
and you know so little about the antidote
but more often you know her wiring slipping between your ribcage
you are galvanized and malleable
and her toxins are excellent sophistry
she wears ordinary clothes but she wears them differently
velvet soft razors, silky buttered knives
and you relish the vitriolic cuts
but when she unwraps, her bronze flesh sets you on edge
(your thigh
her knife
her tongue)
sometime you wonder what beast she is
and then you know
serpent, ophidian
skin shimmering, gaze matte, eyes devouring
alluring yet deadly
[i think sometimes that you misunderstand me]
legs cross and lace falls
[or that you understand me too well]
you stare at the scar on her shoulder
her lesions make a filigree on your skin
as she places you in a crucible
and marinates in your company
[indulge me]
(consume me)
you churn and growl
the silent alleys are ageing
but still nails clash
but still skin mingles like an alloy
with blood dripping through the spaces of your teeth
you are gilded and raw
when she welds crevices into you with tempered phrases
her words are verdigris
and all you can ever breathe is her
–Maddie Gnam
Gros Morne
If I could write this ruddy mountain
As thinly as I see it
I would loll my arm into
The intimacies of people weaved
Ghost threads, cobwebs stretched
Frail across this sea
I would name each
Ligonberry and pretty meek boulder
With all the blunt spread
Of a colonial, or a tourist
My irreverence dulling the bloody
Colours of sugar my lips can’t define
But now the skies are swollen
With myself, I’m piercing
This land, my words
Clumsy raindrops.
–Keah Hansen
Salty moon
girl meets Girl
girl trips over the moon for Girl, but
Girl leaps through stars for another and, they somehow don’t collide
but girl imagines their universe
when she trips
and spins
back down
sees their own world of soft yellow
light, even as she sinks in damp earth
and salt
down down further down
where
girl tastes the sick sweet white light
of Girl on honeymoon with another
and their universe drifts
without sparks
somewhere far
far, so, so, very very
far.
–Anonymous
Madari
I ask my grandmother where she comes from
she says I stem from suitcases
I ask her who she comes from
she says I come from nomads
I take her hands into my own
And ask what the journey was like
She says the road is toughest when you’re on borrowed time
I ask her if she wants to rest
She says she’s never had the time
I wake up at dawn and sit next to her while she prays
She says God hears you better when the rest of the world is sleeping
So I ask, where does God come from
she says, God comes from women who spill their bodies to make room for us
I ask her of these women
She says soon I’ll be one of them
She rests her hand on the side of my cheek and says
Your mother was your first home
And now you pray to the East
Every time you bow your head
Heaven grows under her feet
I ask her if she enjoys poetry
she says I am her favourite poem
I ask if it’s because she helped write me into existence
she says I am the light in her eyes
I ask who she got her eyes from
She says she stole them from the boy next door
I ask her about her first love
She says she left it where she found it
so I trace her footsteps and follow her back to the village where she was conceived
and i marvel at her conception
She was made of her father’s hopes and her mother’s worries
They dreamed of a boy and she harboured that insecurity
she laced it with shortcomings and tied a perfect a bow on what could’ve been her
But she taught what it means to keeping moving on
Her life was not effortless and neither was her love
So
I ask her if she loves me
And she says, enough to step out onto the road again
–Khatira Mahdavi
Baba
I am three years old and my skyline is a soft blue
with your head a halo against the sun
I shut one eye and gaze at you through the other
a cloud of hair on top of a man
Who tethers his love to balloons
You bent down to lift me
And I thought to myself how foolish is the sky to leave you all to me
–Khatira Mahdavi
Lying to your mother is something
you knew instinctively
at 13, and remembered with hell in your head
at 21.
The moon pale as a rib. Houseful of adults and their languages.
Where were they when you pondered bleach at 14?
At the counselor’s you smiled hard
with half of your face. Tea leaves swirl
then settle. One time when you were eight
your mother picked you up from school.
In the car your tears hot enough
to brew tea with. If you behave this way again, I will –
You felt your shoulders turn in, and in, and in.
Cute. Compact. You are the girl-child
your mother never wanted.
–Coco Zhou
Dusk, a lake: where Girl was last seen.
A Girl with brains of beryl, lung of wool.
How did she get here. Whose.
It was the year children learned to swim.
A litter of them, by the lake. Find her
at the edge of slumber. Brains & lung.
Washed out & stretched. Every fish
that swims by throws away its voice.
–Coco Zhou
My belly
Is swollen
with the pain I hold for you
It sits, bloated, between the wet raw flesh of my organs
And it
expands between my ribs
with every
breath
that I take.
I cater to it deftly
Careful not to burst its taut skin
With the soft strokes of
My straying thoughts.
On days where the pain
Sits neatly
Amongst my other organs,
I hold my breath
Careful not to move too quickly.
At home in the body
Of a soul rubbed raw
The pain has started to feel
Like my natural landscape.
On other days it begins to bloat
Seeping out into the dark,
Damp folds of my flesh
And as the storm begins to rage,
My skin
Serves only as a boundary
That contains the violent thoughts
That seek to contort
My muscles
And
Rip through the flesh
That used to sustain me.
That flesh is now a part
Of the pain
What once was my body
Is left, deserted, on my bedroom floor.
– Anonymous